When nothing's going right....

This delinquency has got to stop. I didn't choose for this to happen. I was in hell. I couldn't endure the infernal flames of it. I'm only human and sometimes I make mistakes. However, it is overwhelming this time. I screwed big time in academy. I had to have mommy to resolve certain issues and eventually the counsellor to step in. I wish I was stronger, wish I could feel no pain. And when the problem gets terrifying.....I can only run away. I was lost yet trapped in a secluded cage far beyond the eyes of my saviors, from friends but I know they are in my heart and their names are etched there. And a lonely night looking at stars....my heart started to skip a beat once more. Suddenly, I found myself in the lost garden like paradise. Two wine glasses and all that I had to do was to drink up me Hearties yo ho! I regained my confidence and walked in the academy like a new man with new resolution. I used my time wisely in tutorials and I was always counting seconds until I can get away. No more ditching, just mugging beside precious.

I need that shoulder to lie on, that presence that builds the lost garden, that laughter which chased my despair away.....

I need you

My Wedding

Never actually thought about how I would get married one day. I attended a very traditional wedding ceremony yesterday. It was a little too messy. I mean, relatives come and go and some didn't even wish the Bride & the Groom some luck in their future endeavor. Let's not bitch about their wedding.
I rather fantasize about mine....

Firstly it has to be well-planned...with schedule and dress code.... more like a ceremony.... Less regimental but a ceremony nonetheless. The people on duty will be in a dress code.... Guests can wear whatever they want but do not try to outshine the Bride & the Groom.

The place must be grand... maybe in a country club, hotel or even the magnificent cruise!! It's good if I have the good view of the sea...
In addition, the settings must be like MTV..... The Stage all well decorated...there will be performances by my guests.... red carpet.... walk of fame..... moon men and best of all my bride dresses in one of Lady GaGa's best costume....or it'll be me in it...

Next, the food must be chic..... finger food..... expensive ones like nougat for crunchies and eclairs to make u fat. It'll be course meal for everyone that night.... they have to choose either chicken, or beef for that night..... even vegetarians.... but they would have to indicate so that they'll get fake meat.... White wine for white meat.... Red whine for red meat... Margarita for Vegetarian... :P. We'll have the toast for all the important people, especially my lady GaGa and me... then whole dinner will include 10 dishes or more and the menu will be placed on the table inclusive of the routine order...

Media and Publicity will be extravaganza.... I want the best camera to shoot us.... like those big lenses you see in soccer matches.... the lighting must be up to the standards of the Istana. I want the emcee to be very spontaneous and must be from mass comm. I want A Zirca DJ to hit the records for that night. I want the wedding to be televised...if can.... LOL

So the guest arrives....mingling session... be seated on time.... arrival of Sexy Couples...... speech by Groom or Bride.... by best man..... toast to many VIPs.... performances.... phototaking..... kiss the bride..... Eat..... the Departure of the Fat Sexy Couples..... get a Bentley to drive us away back to our newly bought home..... and VOILA I'm MARRIED....

Just a dream

I didn't choose for this to happen

What if you control your own fate....

They say our fate is in your own hands.

Then why some people say that "you can't help it, it's fate."

Every action has a role to play in deciding ones fate.

Is our destiny written in stones?

Well, I believe in destiny.

You can change destiny but would you even know whether the destiny is changed?

All I can safely say is.....it's better for us not to know our future

It can only do one thing

It destroys ones future

Why must we know our future by some machine like the one in minority report?

I will only work my way towards my vision

And would only let time tell

Even if it is the worst

I would pat myself and say

That's the best I can make out of life