When nothing's going right....

This delinquency has got to stop. I didn't choose for this to happen. I was in hell. I couldn't endure the infernal flames of it. I'm only human and sometimes I make mistakes. However, it is overwhelming this time. I screwed big time in academy. I had to have mommy to resolve certain issues and eventually the counsellor to step in. I wish I was stronger, wish I could feel no pain. And when the problem gets terrifying.....I can only run away. I was lost yet trapped in a secluded cage far beyond the eyes of my saviors, from friends but I know they are in my heart and their names are etched there. And a lonely night looking at stars....my heart started to skip a beat once more. Suddenly, I found myself in the lost garden like paradise. Two wine glasses and all that I had to do was to drink up me Hearties yo ho! I regained my confidence and walked in the academy like a new man with new resolution. I used my time wisely in tutorials and I was always counting seconds until I can get away. No more ditching, just mugging beside precious.

I need that shoulder to lie on, that presence that builds the lost garden, that laughter which chased my despair away.....

I need you

My Wedding

Never actually thought about how I would get married one day. I attended a very traditional wedding ceremony yesterday. It was a little too messy. I mean, relatives come and go and some didn't even wish the Bride & the Groom some luck in their future endeavor. Let's not bitch about their wedding.
I rather fantasize about mine....

Firstly it has to be well-planned...with schedule and dress code.... more like a ceremony.... Less regimental but a ceremony nonetheless. The people on duty will be in a dress code.... Guests can wear whatever they want but do not try to outshine the Bride & the Groom.

The place must be grand... maybe in a country club, hotel or even the magnificent cruise!! It's good if I have the good view of the sea...
In addition, the settings must be like MTV..... The Stage all well decorated...there will be performances by my guests.... red carpet.... walk of fame..... moon men and best of all my bride dresses in one of Lady GaGa's best costume....or it'll be me in it...

Next, the food must be chic..... finger food..... expensive ones like nougat for crunchies and eclairs to make u fat. It'll be course meal for everyone that night.... they have to choose either chicken, or beef for that night..... even vegetarians.... but they would have to indicate so that they'll get fake meat.... White wine for white meat.... Red whine for red meat... Margarita for Vegetarian... :P. We'll have the toast for all the important people, especially my lady GaGa and me... then whole dinner will include 10 dishes or more and the menu will be placed on the table inclusive of the routine order...

Media and Publicity will be extravaganza.... I want the best camera to shoot us.... like those big lenses you see in soccer matches.... the lighting must be up to the standards of the Istana. I want the emcee to be very spontaneous and must be from mass comm. I want A Zirca DJ to hit the records for that night. I want the wedding to be televised...if can.... LOL

So the guest arrives....mingling session... be seated on time.... arrival of Sexy Couples...... speech by Groom or Bride.... by best man..... toast to many VIPs.... performances.... phototaking..... kiss the bride..... Eat..... the Departure of the Fat Sexy Couples..... get a Bentley to drive us away back to our newly bought home..... and VOILA I'm MARRIED....

Just a dream

I didn't choose for this to happen

What if you control your own fate....

They say our fate is in your own hands.

Then why some people say that "you can't help it, it's fate."

Every action has a role to play in deciding ones fate.

Is our destiny written in stones?

Well, I believe in destiny.

You can change destiny but would you even know whether the destiny is changed?

All I can safely say is.....it's better for us not to know our future

It can only do one thing

It destroys ones future

Why must we know our future by some machine like the one in minority report?

I will only work my way towards my vision

And would only let time tell

Even if it is the worst

I would pat myself and say

That's the best I can make out of life

To My Escapade!

School is over for now...
I got to unwind myself before getting back to the papers.
Few things I need to complete
To set the Teachers free
To imprisoned the Cadets and then set them free
To venture into uncharted terrains

And After That........

I'm going to party till the dust settles for next year....
Then studying would be nothing but a formality.....

I'm looking forward to the Christmas Party we are having.
It's gonna be the first time we ever organize this.
Many people will be invited
The theme is going to be very stupendous!
With the VIPs all in dress code,
The DJ playing the latest hits,
Drinks and food served directly to guests,
Games to keep them busy,
And what kind of X'mas party doesn't have any gifts?

But I have to wait tomorrow after tomorrow till this day arrives...
Meanwhile, I'll keep myself preoccupied...
But it's ok!
Because tomorrow's just a song away!

Zinc Iodide Magnesium Aluminide Hydroxide

Water is a universal solvent;

the clear liquid, essential for all plant and animal life, that occurs as rain, snow, and ice, and forms rivers, lakes, and seas.
Pure water is odorless, colorless, and tasteless.

Naturally occurring water picks up color and taste from substances in its environment.

Its formula is H2O.

On the other hand Fluoride is an anion which has the formula of F-.

Due to its occurrence of being charged, it is naturally hydrophilic.

Another words it has affinity for H2O.

Eventhough H2O has partial charges due to the electronegativity of Oxygen, delta charge, it cannot be neglected as reactions may occur such as hydrogen bonding when F- meets H2O.

This is the scientific poetry I can come out with.

I Can't Falter

I have one last paper to do before I regard myself as a free man. I screwed up my paper today. The moment I flipped open the question paper, I saw legion of figures waiting to charge my mind. Before I even knew it, I was having a mental block. I jammed for quite sometime that when I snapped out of it, the paper started......35 mins ago! I'm screwed.

Bao Bei, if you are reading this....I'm sorry. I shouldn't have made you angry before paper. By the way your hair isn't weird. It's disgusting....hehe just a joke....staaaay calm. I mean it was different. It's not so bad. I mean you have hair....unlike some balding flimsy brush.

Now, I have to focus on bio. It's very tough. What can you expect? It is science!
Commencing Condition Red
Prepare For
BIOHAZARD!

Music Empire!

Save The World! It is the only planet with MTV!

Reality is bad. It does not have background music.

What is growing up without music?

Music is everything...

Me, Myself & iPod

When you think the day isn't going right,

Plug-in the JACK and listen to your iPod,

The tunes they play could determine your day.

Listen to the tune and walk under the weak sunlight,

Take your broken heart and make it right!

Clash of Bones and Sinews

The school has been a place where people can freely express themselves. Some express themselves too openly and some prefer being conservative. We can see talent everywhere and most of them are very beautiful. From talented singers to avid sportsmen, we definitely have many talented students here.

There are a handful of people expressing themselves in such a way that people would not enjoy seeing. Either they are seen as pretentious or just faking their personalities. It can be a real turn off when one tries too hard in being someone he or she isn't. Would you let someone hate you for whom you are or love you for who you are not? Either way it may seem like a loss. Pretending requires effort and energy. You will get tired one day and when that day comes, the truth may turn out to be very ugly. It isn't ugly because it's the truth but it is ugly because it came out from a lie added with hatred, distrust and emotional agony. Sometimes we hate ourselves because we keep comparing ourselves to what we could be. We always find ourselves lacking. We always find ourselves useless. The truth is, our strength lies deep within us and the same strength could really make a difference in the lives of others. If we find that strength, we will learn to love ourselves.

Being yourself is the best thing you could do for yourself. The only thing that is constantly changing is your habits. Your actions vary from time to time but your personality remains the same. Your talents are your attributes and they come in many different forms. When you feel like a loser after some setbacks, remember the time when you beat all other millions of sperm.
You owned them!

Take this Broken Heart and Make it Right

I have always believed that you get what you want if you work hard enough. What's lacking? I sat down to reflect in the past and I overlooked certain details that triggered the biggest change. I proved my point in some ways, some ways I thought it could be impressive. I was terribly wrong.

At the end of the battle, I realized I have not even hoist the colours. I was at a wrong location with some worse people. I worked so hard to accomplish the far-flung goals but the thing I want most, I wasn't even getting closer. In the end, I raised the white flag knowing the hazards of my choice. And everything else started to fall apart. The rebel grew into an outlaw and I got myself trapped in time. Restarting anew could be a good choice but time is of the essence.

As strong as I can look, I am hopelessly weak inside. I'm all blistered and shattered inside. I'm a broken man. I'm not even certain to call myself a man. I fear it so much that I began to hate it. Soon, I took a path far from the sight of thing I want most.

I regained my confidence and started to live but I could never run away from the fact that I'm dead because no man can live without a heart.

Was it something I say to make you turn away, to make you walk out and live me cold?
Why do you keep us apart? Why won't you give up your heart?
I don't suppose we meant to be together
But should we be the sea & the sky, where both are as blue but they rest side by side.
You can call me hopeless because I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me not perfect but then again, who's perfect?

And I know in your heart, you can say that you don't love me too....

oh please say you do

Get Along Little Doggies

It has been a pretty long week. Be Yourself Day, National Day Parade & Movies. After everything ends, I would love to hug my pillow and drink my cup of tea made by the drinker himself.

I was being pretty much like myself for the MI NDP celebration. We were like prisoners last Friday. We were locked inside home room for the entire day to listen to the PA system and celebrate NDP carrying out the preventive measures of H1N1.

Immediately after that, I thought I deserve to pamper myself with some movies. Public Enemies was cool and I'm not gonna be a spoiler to tell the synopsis. Next was G.I.JOE which was action-packed and never a dull moment. Thumbs up for both of them and a kiss to Johnny Depp.

That wasn't all. The next day I witness a Parade in Bukit Batok by the NCC featuring other uniform groups. Well done to all the participants. Went out for dinner with my friends and then we hanged on the vert to share our love life. I got to say we are losers in this aspect of life. However, someone's gonna be a winner soon.
If think that's about it, you are wrong. We went out the next day to see Fireworks! Then I met Oranat in Zouk. Honestly that club stank for that day. I reunited with my friends after that and this time we share about our hard times everywhere, especially in our beloved organization.

So now I'm back making a cup of tea for myself.

Resurrected Wings

I was Exiled to be away, to observe, to learn but never to hide. She moved without me, without my mind, without my words. Some parts of her might be paralyzed after I was gone. They became insignificant to her and soon their services are no longer needed. Some pillars chose to take away their hearts which were once thrust deep within her, where mine is and never barge an inch. What were my errors?

I studied long enough about the affairs going on within her & beyond her. The power of words in her is fading. Elders leaving, new blood is disappointing. Are there any devotion left in her? Is she alright? Whispers kept murmuring she's ill and frail. I was there when she was born. I was there with some of them when she got her first breath. We were there when she was first written into history. But I wasn't really there when she became ill. Have I betrayed her?

I was portraying her but that was the past. Tides were not as those that wash her these days. Her new mind, voice and heart faced even greater adversaries lately, especially how faith plunged into the maelstrom. One of the Elder is still there to ensure the adherents keep multiplying. The other Elder, a stronger one, came back lately to provide support. She's slowly healing but her mind is facing unrest. So much that the adherents could do but only a devotee could calm her mind.

I'm a devotee, I'm an Elder, I'm the Pioneer. The only crime is to destroy whatever we have started. I would never let her die.

July 28, 2009,
I shall return to her but this time with an established vision.
I shall return and reclaim the twisted.
I shall see the Matriarch once more.
I will be delighted to see her because The Matriarch was the reason I was eager to establish her mind but of course it was someone else who brought me to her initially, long before the Matriarch came in.

Put aside the Student Rebel. Be someone who I can be. I'll give faith to all adherents and keep none for myself. I will no longer sit in the head table but rather with the Matriarch sharing wise words. My time to lead her is over. Now it is his time and he shall bring West back to its feet. Each adherent has the power to cure her. Will you be the one?

I Am Captain Jack
And I'm proud to serve West Once more.
Carpe Diem!

Vacant Alleys Literally Elucidate Really Illogical Eccentricities

I'll see you soon. Take me with you.

Since 1999.......

Honey Bunnies

Lately, I have 2 new companions. They are really adorable, fluffy and they are my new novelty. They are none other than my Bunnies! I have 2 of them and they are actually siblings but their colours are not the same at all. They are so adorable that they make you won't want to look away.

This is Bucky....

He's actually very small.

This is Lucy.

She's the hyperactive Bunny.
They are my new family members and they can live harmoniously with my cats. Things have been hectic in my life and before you know it, I've already waxed my legs the 3rd time this year. When I had a rough day from anywhere abyssal, Lucy & Bucky can make things right. Their unstoppable sniffing and nibbling will make you want to bite them.

I saw you today. My feelings for you didn't really change despite the distance. You used to be the only right thing going on in my life and you are the only reason why I don my No.4. I used to say to myself that whenever something bad happens, it couldn't be that bad because I got you to talk things out. The unavoidable truth is I miss you.








Even if I have these bunnies, it will be the same without you.

Jack's Alter Ego

I walked around The Arts Museum yesterday despite the cold snap. People would go to a flea market to get cheap clothes or junks and some wouldn't mind walking round and round to just look around and tell their friends Wooo! I've been to a flea market! I looked for something that was quite rare to see around the courtyard. Furthermore, it wouldn't come from a person like me. Some shop owners didn't know what I wanted, others gave me that surprised looked but at least there was this lady who thought I wanted to buy for my girlfriend. Firstly, I'm single and secondly, what's wrong with buying it for my own? Well of course they'll be shocked when some guy asked for this......

Yeah! It is a Corset!!!!!

I want! I want! I WANT!!!!!!

And you might think it is inappropriate for me to be in that lungs compressing apparel. Oh Come On! I wore a tutu and leotards when I was young! I put on make up most of the time when I go out with my mom! I carry purse instead of Wallet! And My legs are nicely WAXED!!!! So I think adding a little bit more femininity wouldn't change much of my genetic configuration. I promise to you readers that I will let the whole school see me wear it one day. I know it'll be hard to breathe in it but I'll make the people looking at me having difficulty in breathing instead:P

So Stay tuned for Jack in Corset Coming soon this 2009!

Sunshine Parade on Thursday!

This is Neo Si Jin or better known by me & Jacklyn as Chin. On 09/07/09 we went to Palawan Beach. All of us got burnt by the giant spotlight but Jacklyn got the worst. She's like vanilla and strawberry now. As for me, I got no issues. I'm already dark :P


Si Jin got targeted many times, in the sea, along the shore and even out of Palawan. It was not only by us but even by some random thing. She went out of the sea in pain with her leg having a scratch mark. The lifeguard said she got stung by a marine creature, JELLYFISH!!!! LOL!!!!


I watch Discovery Channel and it was mentioned that such stings can be cured by urine's content. I would be glad to pee on her. Now don't get me wrong, it's for charity. I won't do specially for her. If anyone of my friends got stung, I'll pee on anyone of them. However, I have stage fright so we used the more civilized way, a solution by the lifeguard. NOT HIS SOLUTION, his bottle of anti-jellyfish stings spray.


Poor little Chin. She brought something extra with her home. I thought she'll be traumatized with jelly for quite sometime but surprisingly she got over it so quickly. She was eating gummy bears on the way back to Vivo City. Tio Bo!

Settler's Cafe

This is Syukri or better known as Syukor.
You must be wondering why was he wearing that headband with Sydney attached to it.

Lately, we went to Settlers Cafe to play some Boardgame.
They offer more than just an everyday boardgame.
Like, have you heard of Ugly Dolls?? Don't have to try answering
Precisely my point.

But I gotta say this....Board Game isn't the Syukri's thing.
Unlike IT where He became Dumbledore in it,
But he was really getting whupped up in those board games!
The good thing is, he learns quite fast and soon became a competitive player in the Late Game.
So I recommend all of you to get yourself seated in Settlers' Cafe and laugh over a Board Game.

Enjoyable place especially when City Hall is getting boring.
I gotta thank those of you who caught me off guard and dumped me into the fountains along SMU. At least I wasn't 100 pounds soaking wet like Mr. Syukri.
We dumped him into a deeper place, the fountain in front of Ngee Ann City.
To amplify that one, he took a bus home with the freezing air-con.

Good Day
Good Games
Good Pranks
Good People!

See What the Rangers have to Say

C-130 rolling down the street
Airborne Rangers took a little trip
Stand up, Hook up, Shuffle to the door
Jump right out by the count of 4

Airborne Rangers, Commandos
Ai Yo Ai Yo Ai Ai Yo

If my wing doesn't open wide
I have another one by my side
If that one doesn't open too
I am in for a jolly good ride

If I land in a Russian Front
Bury me with a Russian Gun
If I land in East Timor
Box me up and send me home

Airborne Rangers, Commandos

Ai Yo Ai Yo Ai Ai Yo

Tell my mom I've done my best
SILVER WINGS UPON MY CHEST
Tell My friends I've done my Best
Now it's time for me to rest

I'm not dead yet! Cpt Jack is immortal, remember? But still, I couldn't believe I survived through the training till the second jump. I hate to rig-up. It is full of discomfort especially near the groin. The moment I was prepared to be in action, I started treasuring every second of my life. The Chopper was making so much noise that I couldn't even hear my thoughts. I gripped my static line, my life, tight like holding my wife's hand to cherish the last moments with her.

When the Jump Master gave the command to stand up, my legs started to tremble. I managed to look out of the window and couldn't help but notice...... HOLY SHIT! I'M HIGH UP IN THE SKY!!!! Everything was so small like the size of matchboxes! I swallowed hard and tried to look away from the beautiful but balls-squeezing scene. I was the 4Th jumper and that wasn't really a good thing because I was close to the ramp of the Chopper. I've seen it all now it's time for me to be in action.

It was my turn standing at the edge of that aircraft after the third guy have jumped, the same one carrying the Singapore flag during NDP, The Chinook. It all happened in split seconds. My heart was racing hoping that the tap from the Jump Master wouldn't come. However, it did anyway even before I could overcome my fear. It was a reflex action to automatically punch out of the aircraft if I was tapped. I closed my eyes and jumped out into the Abyss! WHAT THE BRA!!!!??? I WAS OUT IN THE SKY RUSHING DOWN FROM 1000 ft!!! After a few seconds I felt a sudden drag and to my relief, my canopy opened and I'm ready to venture the sky.

After my hangtime, I landed on the Runway in the Airbase. I just got my self all Fu**ed-up. I was having a mental block and didn't know how to react in the nick of time. The landing already hurt my left arm and thigh. The impact was wow! I recovered in time to carry my parachute out of the runway. If I didn't survive the jump, this blog wouldn't even be updated.
I'm a sky trooper. A Spear-head Trooper. A Shock Trooper

I AM AIRBORNE!

Just a Little Rock & Roll

I'll be back soon.

I'm just having a little Whoo! A Little Aahh! A Little Rock and Roll...

It's Not Easy To Break Me

Howdy Mates! I'm back!

It's been a while now. I've been busy with school. Don't get me wrong about the word school. It used to be "Jack Dragging his feet to school". Well time has changed. Now it's "Jack being part of the school". I guess many people already knew that. I won't, again, talk about how's school.

I got new companions now. I'll show you in the next post if you wait around. I walk the streets like never before. I'm free from any restrictions. I like what I wear, how I feel and most importantly what I have in mind. Swimming has been my life lately. And to end a good day, I would sit on my couch watching Friends with my companions running free. I just love their occasional 'sniffing-my-ears'.

Recently I went to Nicole's Birthday Party with Oranat. I met many people. Kinda shy to talk to them. Well Jack can only feel shy sometimes. Talked to Nicole a little latter about ourselves. It's cool.

I have a new craze for NUM goods. They are just colourful! Well some say it's gay. Well I'm not gay. I'm the New Urban Male and I party like a Rockstar! Nah....not exactly

BUT!

I NOE

HOW TO PARTY!