Saturday, April 24, 2010

When nothing's going right....

This delinquency has got to stop. I didn't choose for this to happen. I was in hell. I couldn't endure the infernal flames of it. I'm only human and sometimes I make mistakes. However, it is overwhelming this time. I screwed big time in academy. I had to have mommy to resolve certain issues and eventually the counsellor to step in. I wish I was stronger, wish I could feel no pain. And when the problem gets terrifying.....I can only run away. I was lost yet trapped in a secluded cage far beyond the eyes of my saviors, from friends but I know they are in my heart and their names are etched there. And a lonely night looking at stars....my heart started to skip a beat once more. Suddenly, I found myself in the lost garden like paradise. Two wine glasses and all that I had to do was to drink up me Hearties yo ho! I regained my confidence and walked in the academy like a new man with new resolution. I used my time wisely in tutorials and I was always counting seconds until I can get away. No more ditching, just mugging beside precious.

I need that shoulder to lie on, that presence that builds the lost garden, that laughter which chased my despair away.....
I need you