Clash of Bones and Sinews

The school has been a place where people can freely express themselves. Some express themselves too openly and some prefer being conservative. We can see talent everywhere and most of them are very beautiful. From talented singers to avid sportsmen, we definitely have many talented students here.

There are a handful of people expressing themselves in such a way that people would not enjoy seeing. Either they are seen as pretentious or just faking their personalities. It can be a real turn off when one tries too hard in being someone he or she isn't. Would you let someone hate you for whom you are or love you for who you are not? Either way it may seem like a loss. Pretending requires effort and energy. You will get tired one day and when that day comes, the truth may turn out to be very ugly. It isn't ugly because it's the truth but it is ugly because it came out from a lie added with hatred, distrust and emotional agony. Sometimes we hate ourselves because we keep comparing ourselves to what we could be. We always find ourselves lacking. We always find ourselves useless. The truth is, our strength lies deep within us and the same strength could really make a difference in the lives of others. If we find that strength, we will learn to love ourselves.

Being yourself is the best thing you could do for yourself. The only thing that is constantly changing is your habits. Your actions vary from time to time but your personality remains the same. Your talents are your attributes and they come in many different forms. When you feel like a loser after some setbacks, remember the time when you beat all other millions of sperm.
You owned them!

Take this Broken Heart and Make it Right

I have always believed that you get what you want if you work hard enough. What's lacking? I sat down to reflect in the past and I overlooked certain details that triggered the biggest change. I proved my point in some ways, some ways I thought it could be impressive. I was terribly wrong.

At the end of the battle, I realized I have not even hoist the colours. I was at a wrong location with some worse people. I worked so hard to accomplish the far-flung goals but the thing I want most, I wasn't even getting closer. In the end, I raised the white flag knowing the hazards of my choice. And everything else started to fall apart. The rebel grew into an outlaw and I got myself trapped in time. Restarting anew could be a good choice but time is of the essence.

As strong as I can look, I am hopelessly weak inside. I'm all blistered and shattered inside. I'm a broken man. I'm not even certain to call myself a man. I fear it so much that I began to hate it. Soon, I took a path far from the sight of thing I want most.

I regained my confidence and started to live but I could never run away from the fact that I'm dead because no man can live without a heart.

Was it something I say to make you turn away, to make you walk out and live me cold?
Why do you keep us apart? Why won't you give up your heart?
I don't suppose we meant to be together
But should we be the sea & the sky, where both are as blue but they rest side by side.
You can call me hopeless because I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me not perfect but then again, who's perfect?

And I know in your heart, you can say that you don't love me too....

oh please say you do

Get Along Little Doggies

It has been a pretty long week. Be Yourself Day, National Day Parade & Movies. After everything ends, I would love to hug my pillow and drink my cup of tea made by the drinker himself.

I was being pretty much like myself for the MI NDP celebration. We were like prisoners last Friday. We were locked inside home room for the entire day to listen to the PA system and celebrate NDP carrying out the preventive measures of H1N1.

Immediately after that, I thought I deserve to pamper myself with some movies. Public Enemies was cool and I'm not gonna be a spoiler to tell the synopsis. Next was G.I.JOE which was action-packed and never a dull moment. Thumbs up for both of them and a kiss to Johnny Depp.

That wasn't all. The next day I witness a Parade in Bukit Batok by the NCC featuring other uniform groups. Well done to all the participants. Went out for dinner with my friends and then we hanged on the vert to share our love life. I got to say we are losers in this aspect of life. However, someone's gonna be a winner soon.
If think that's about it, you are wrong. We went out the next day to see Fireworks! Then I met Oranat in Zouk. Honestly that club stank for that day. I reunited with my friends after that and this time we share about our hard times everywhere, especially in our beloved organization.

So now I'm back making a cup of tea for myself.