Cardiological Test

"10 years he waited

10 years he performed the duty bestowed upon him

10 years he sailed the seven sea

10 years before he could set foot on land

and after 10 years

when they could finally be together

she wasn't there

So he cut out his heart

and seal it in the

Dead Man's Chest"

Being Strong in the heart is rather a weakness than a strength. My Father used to say that I was too weak that one day I'll be enslaved. He noticed that "weakness" everytime I my brothers treat me like a mongrel pup. My Father taught me a lesson and since then, I'm never easy to be tamed by my brothers. The more they couldn't tame me, they more physical violence they used. Every of my family member embrace this value, resilience. They wouldn't give up in making me feel weak. On the other hand, I won't give in. Our relationship has been strained since we were toddlers. I hated their guts till I spat out something that seemed to be a vow.

"During your Funeral Ceremony, I will look at your corpse and smile."

Eventually it became,

"I'll be the one sending you into the Coffin."

How I hate those sinister!

I'm insensitive, I'm frank and I don't give a damn in giving delicacies. It isn't my nature. I was nurtured this way. I tried so hard to change. I've offended many and never regretted even once. I didn't choose to be like this. Someone ever said that I have a refined quartz instead of a beating heart. You are right. I never had a heart. Just like Davy Jones. No matter what I still have will power and it is saying that I should grow a heart, grow better, grow into a human.

I'm only human

And I'm never far from sins

Please show me the righteous path

Please forgive me for my errors

Please forgive those who've done sins to me

For they are not entirely responsible for it

Please show me answers

Please save me from the abyss

I swear to you I'm your servant

And your servant fears your wrath

Just like any other servants

I want to be welcomed into Paradise....

Within Walking Distance

“Power is not necessary as it brings dispute."
Again and again people tried to give excuses to remove their threat.
There will always be dispute, therefore power is necessary.
The path they took,
The path they believed could lift them from their miseries.
It brought great suffering to both sides, nonetheless.
It's nothing personal.
It's just good business.
Should the warmongers be left laughing in this world?
Should a child take a bullet in times of skirmishes?
Should husbands leave the house and never return?
Should wives be at service to the Powerful?
Should we open doors to Him?
He'll be a better leader than any other legend.
Hitler would not even be close.
He is the providence.
He is the New World.
I hope I'd not live to see such times.
Then again, who would?
It's not for us to decide.
What we can decide is what to do with the time given.
Should we risk it all in our Mortal Life?
Or should we embrace sufferings so that the Afterlife would be much availing.
Life is cruel.
Why should the afterlife be any different?
Well turn to the Powerful and postpone the judgment.
Live for Eternity
Or
Die for Eternity

The post might seem confusing and contradicting. Whatever you can infer? Whatever you want to believe?
You decide......

A Little more 19 Candles

The Celebration in my school was utterly boring. I wished I was selected to perform but I was so busy to adjust back to student mode. As usual, hang out with Ricardonna and rebel against hall rules. Then Riny called. She wanted to see me to surprise me with something. She gave me a present! WEEEEEE! However I saw the word ISETAN. That gift is soooooo............so cheap! How could I be surprised! Hehe kidding! It's the thought that counts. Thanks Riny! You know I like attention so I walked around with the 'happy birthday' post-it on Riny's gift facing out. So I got almost everyone I know in my path to wish me Happy Birthday.....Yeaheh Savvy!

I went out with Linga & Mitchell for lunch at the expense of my sleep( I didn't sleep for 2 days:\). So immediately after that, I slept long enough to accumulate 46 missed calls. It was Minister of Manpower! He claimed that his family was having some BBQ over at West Coast. I woke up about 8 and got myself ready for the BBQ. I didn't pick up any calls when any of them tried to get me. How'd you like the Missing Jack Sparrow!

I was amazed seeing faces that have no appointment in WJLA. I began to wonder for a moment. Luckily I was quick enough to catch that little message. Hell Yeah! They surprised me. As usual every Birthday Celebration comes with a Birthday Bash. I used to be the planner now I'm the plan. They made me into a walking pasta. I noticed MPO's laughter was the most evil. My fair warning to you. What happened to Nick Carter when he tried to punk Ashton Kutcher? The same that will happen to you my MPO except........ I'll collect seaweed in a jar. And all others, each of your presence is a sin. Therefore I need to absolve them. Muahahahahah! At least the BBQ was cool. Few little burnt finger food and a bottle of rum. Drink up me hearties Yoho! And Thanks Crow for The Sparrow Kitty!

I was scheduled for lunch with Lil Tracy, Qiqi and Project XR. We had Swensen's in West Mall. And again I was late, late as usual. Gosh! I gotta change my sleeping pattern. And so they came to conclusion that my acneland is caused by my lack of sleep, perhaps. We came to an interesting tutorial by Tracy. She taught us how to be a good kisser. You want to know how? Please fill in the application form and pass it to Tracy. Ouh and I gotta thank you kitty for that Famous Amos! A little name for you sweetheart. Egotional!

When you thought everything is over, then something just popped! My family made another surprise. I'm beginning to hate surprises now. This time my face became the cake. Well food baths are good. They help you minimize the number of sebum and excess oil that may lead to blackheads and pimples. Yeah right! I woke up yesterday with a hill in my Acneland.

How I love 2009. Begin it well, end it with satisfaction...

I would like to take this opportunity to thank
The WJLA
and those who were present that night,
Ma Favourite Lil Tracy,
Ma Apple Head Qihui &
Ma Genius Marionette Xinran
Ma Papa
Ma Mama
Ma Queen Elizabeth
Ma Master, the Don Adam
Ma DJ, Fancee Fazz
Ma cousin, Munir Shah (your gift is the best)
(The WJLAs must be cursing me for not mentioning their names)
Ma MPO Sholihin (watch for Vendetta)
Ma 2wo Apito (don't act innocent)
Ma ReplicOs Cloud & Victor (Double Strike)
Ma Star Wars Healme (Beer Goggles coming)
Ma MAJ Singgam ( Hashim) (Coming Soon!)
Ma Trainees Izuan & Hakim (You have pool days you know)
Ma-ni Bhai Syukor (Since 1994) (Hoho! you are in too)
Ma hairdresser
Ma make-up artist
Ma snake
hahaha macam credits!........

Despair

He lost it all when he realised he felt comfortable without it.

He loves the tormented and judgements.

He loves the twisted, the confused.

He suffered, now he grows to spread suffering.

He forgot the sound of affection.

He forgot the taste of hope.

Oh the Lost and the Confused, show me your sight of despair

And I shall lift you from your sorrows.

The Darkest Hour

No one knew what happened that day. He wasn't tough to endure the pain. He lost some skin, some disgusting blood and most of all his dignity. He lifted the poor soul to his feet. He gave him his anger like a gun. The poor little boy couldn't retaliate, so to his home he just cycled straight.

Tell You know who, forgive me

Tell You know who, I'm sorry

Tell You know who, I'm giving up

I may leave anytime

I cannot wait

He came at night with the sound of wind. Silence took over my heavy gasp. He lifted his right palm and he told me that, my time is short and how could I forget. He look so fearsome with his eerie stern. I couldn't move but to listen to his speech. I wouldn't want to recall on what he said but the little reminders keep ringing in my head.

Literal Emoticons

My emotions are so unstable these days. I've been so hyped up at the same time being so mean to others. These fluctuation is destroying everything I built. I think the worst that is happening right now is I'm hating TV. No one understands me, neither do I. I hope these are the times of sorrow which can be no more then a passing of moment. I'd love to wave at it when it passes by. Ouh Jacky be strong, be consistent, be yourself. I noe the best cure though.

Cpt

Jack

is immortal

Drink up me hearties YoHo!