Cardiological Test

"10 years he waited

10 years he performed the duty bestowed upon him

10 years he sailed the seven sea

10 years before he could set foot on land

and after 10 years

when they could finally be together

she wasn't there

So he cut out his heart

and seal it in the

Dead Man's Chest"

Being Strong in the heart is rather a weakness than a strength. My Father used to say that I was too weak that one day I'll be enslaved. He noticed that "weakness" everytime I my brothers treat me like a mongrel pup. My Father taught me a lesson and since then, I'm never easy to be tamed by my brothers. The more they couldn't tame me, they more physical violence they used. Every of my family member embrace this value, resilience. They wouldn't give up in making me feel weak. On the other hand, I won't give in. Our relationship has been strained since we were toddlers. I hated their guts till I spat out something that seemed to be a vow.

"During your Funeral Ceremony, I will look at your corpse and smile."

Eventually it became,

"I'll be the one sending you into the Coffin."

How I hate those sinister!

I'm insensitive, I'm frank and I don't give a damn in giving delicacies. It isn't my nature. I was nurtured this way. I tried so hard to change. I've offended many and never regretted even once. I didn't choose to be like this. Someone ever said that I have a refined quartz instead of a beating heart. You are right. I never had a heart. Just like Davy Jones. No matter what I still have will power and it is saying that I should grow a heart, grow better, grow into a human.

I'm only human

And I'm never far from sins

Please show me the righteous path

Please forgive me for my errors

Please forgive those who've done sins to me

For they are not entirely responsible for it

Please show me answers

Please save me from the abyss

I swear to you I'm your servant

And your servant fears your wrath

Just like any other servants

I want to be welcomed into Paradise....