Rhythm of my Heart

I went for medical check-up last Tuesday. I remembered the time when I had to go through the Hyperbaric Chamber. It wasn't a 100% guaranteed that I would pass the test and furthermore I see many people going before me failed. Luckily, I passed the Hyperbaric Chamber Test. This time it was only Urine Test, X-Ray, Eye Test & ECG. So I thought it was a simple one. After undergoing all the tests, I went to Room 6 to see the MO. He look at my ECG result and was shocked. He asked me whether I read my own ECG result. There was a line stating Abnormal Right Deviation. (if I remember correctly) He said my heart was having irregular beatings. He said only 10% will have this and it is a high chance of them getting not a PES A or B. However, some are perfectly fine with that and got a great PES Status.

What the Frog? I wasn't convinced with the result. I kept asking him questions about what is going to happen when I enlist. I wasn't going to jump from C-130 after all. So I quickly cab down to 2nd Home to witness the selection and tried to give myself hope. There, only is eligible to take the selection tests. Chief of Air was there and he hasn’t taken his medical screening. I went straight to Commandant and asked him what the possibilities are. The Legendary Isammudin was there. He wasn't that fearsome as they used to say.

There I was, with Alvin, in CMPB again on Wednesday. Went through all the tests again. Nothing much changed in me after a day. So I'm prepared to get the same results. Went in to see the MO again. And he said the same things. And he was looking at my ECG result for a little while. And I was expecting the same result. And there it was, "You're fit for your course." Okay. Okay? What?! I got through!!! Wooohoooo!!!!

Lesson learnt is...........Believe in yourself....

Send Despair back to the Abyss

The hour is late. Hope is already fading. Hope & Faith entwined but never together. Joy can only be triumph with the presence of Hope. When Hope is gone, should there be Faith in the Origins. Faith gave the direction and the sense of purpose but its only purpose is to be blessed with Hope. Now courage is the best defense it bears. Courage for Passion, Courage for Fellowship and Courage for Hope. Faith is in everyone of you in due time.

Lower the Bridge for More than Just Flesh & Blood

I chose the exile. Partly my choice, partly an order. My journey away from the Origins was long. I've encountered many faces, countless situations and that's the only thing I could pray for. The journey made me understand what life is like being conformed and only who share the tears of my joy and anguish could tell what's written in the tales of my adventure. If they cannot decipher them, then no one will.

It drank what's left of my world. I ventured into space and time and built my own world once more. A world, now different from the Origins, away from structure and away insignias. A world where your memories are written with laughter and benevolence. This time I'm the one that fight with no ensign. Ironic as it seems, I enjoyed both worlds with the way I am in each. A Patriot in the Origins but A Rebel in The New World. That's when the Paradox was born.

Too long have I been drown with nothing but concepts and theories. Too long have I shouted the call of duty but the insignia didn't appear as it was hidden deep inside my heart. Too long have I been watching from afar when hatred broke out and I was unable to subdue it. Too long have I let the pieces on the chess board be moved without proper guidance. No longer.......

Behold, I'm already on my way back.

My Bloody Valentines

She is my little pal living in my Diary

She kept me company when I'm lonely

She'll be my love should all others fail

She fears neither death nor pain

She truly lived

But she didn't truly die

As you can see she is losing so much blood

But she is still smiling

Because she knows someone would replace it for her

I've done my part in donating blood

Now do your part

so that none would be like her

Died bleeding

The Nineteenth Candle

Dear Neo Si Jin,

I dedicate this post solely for you.

I know we were very mean to dao you for the whole Thursday.

And worse made you feel guilty for bullying our HT.

Like what Lady Jacklyn said, we know you didn't bully her.

We love so much and the whole class planned something for you.

Well, that's the little plan of ours.

Do you like it?

We don't bash girls, we let them bathe in the sweet cream of Tiramisu.

I know you feel sticky

And you smell Tiramisuish.

But I just want to let you know that

Just like the cake will be incomplete without the cream

Our class will be incomplete without you.

Even if you are the last member of our class (IF!)

Like the Nineteenth candle,

YOU MEAN EVERYTHING!

Wait Around I'll Smile Again

I think you're already pissed off

I think I'm being too silent

I think I'm finally scared now

You think I'm wrong

I think you're right

I think I'm so mean

I think we should talk

I think I won't flee from this in my life

I think I'm ready

But I think too much

Well I didn't mean to annoy you. And certainly not to piss you off. I'm staying away because you said fuck off. Well if you want me gone, I'll be gone. I know I'm not generous with my smile these days. Well, it has been hard for me to get over few important things in my life. I realised you get pissed off easily these days and that's not helping. Maybe I irritated you too much. I don't feel like expressing so much. What a guy who can't even keep a girl from leaving say? I promise if you wait around I'll smile again. That couldn't be so complicated.

When The Rain Is Pouring Down

It has been raining these few days. And sorrow drowned my loved ones. Charis was having her worst week. She has problems with school and it has just escalated last Friday. Chill ok:) We are here for you. Then Joycee left MI too. I'll just take this as a passing of time and try to persuade myself no to feel sad.

Yesterday, we went to Youth Park to support Sister Yaklyn. It was shining so brightly then all of a sudden, it started raining. The worst thing is, it was Yaklyn's turn to sing. However she put it to her advantage because she was singing Keys's "No One" and there is a part saying, "When the rain is pouring down..."

Even in times of sorrow, one can find happiness. Like every downpour, a rainbow will only come right after it. And that my friend, wasn't a single drop of rum :P