I didn't choose for this to happen

What if you control your own fate....

They say our fate is in your own hands.

Then why some people say that "you can't help it, it's fate."

Every action has a role to play in deciding ones fate.

Is our destiny written in stones?

Well, I believe in destiny.

You can change destiny but would you even know whether the destiny is changed?

All I can safely say is.....it's better for us not to know our future

It can only do one thing

It destroys ones future

Why must we know our future by some machine like the one in minority report?

I will only work my way towards my vision

And would only let time tell

Even if it is the worst

I would pat myself and say

That's the best I can make out of life

To My Escapade!

School is over for now...
I got to unwind myself before getting back to the papers.
Few things I need to complete
To set the Teachers free
To imprisoned the Cadets and then set them free
To venture into uncharted terrains

And After That........

I'm going to party till the dust settles for next year....
Then studying would be nothing but a formality.....

I'm looking forward to the Christmas Party we are having.
It's gonna be the first time we ever organize this.
Many people will be invited
The theme is going to be very stupendous!
With the VIPs all in dress code,
The DJ playing the latest hits,
Drinks and food served directly to guests,
Games to keep them busy,
And what kind of X'mas party doesn't have any gifts?

But I have to wait tomorrow after tomorrow till this day arrives...
Meanwhile, I'll keep myself preoccupied...
But it's ok!
Because tomorrow's just a song away!

Zinc Iodide Magnesium Aluminide Hydroxide

Water is a universal solvent;

the clear liquid, essential for all plant and animal life, that occurs as rain, snow, and ice, and forms rivers, lakes, and seas.
Pure water is odorless, colorless, and tasteless.

Naturally occurring water picks up color and taste from substances in its environment.

Its formula is H2O.

On the other hand Fluoride is an anion which has the formula of F-.

Due to its occurrence of being charged, it is naturally hydrophilic.

Another words it has affinity for H2O.

Eventhough H2O has partial charges due to the electronegativity of Oxygen, delta charge, it cannot be neglected as reactions may occur such as hydrogen bonding when F- meets H2O.

This is the scientific poetry I can come out with.

I Can't Falter

I have one last paper to do before I regard myself as a free man. I screwed up my paper today. The moment I flipped open the question paper, I saw legion of figures waiting to charge my mind. Before I even knew it, I was having a mental block. I jammed for quite sometime that when I snapped out of it, the paper started......35 mins ago! I'm screwed.

Bao Bei, if you are reading this....I'm sorry. I shouldn't have made you angry before paper. By the way your hair isn't weird. It's disgusting....hehe just a joke....staaaay calm. I mean it was different. It's not so bad. I mean you have hair....unlike some balding flimsy brush.

Now, I have to focus on bio. It's very tough. What can you expect? It is science!
Commencing Condition Red
Prepare For
BIOHAZARD!

Music Empire!

Save The World! It is the only planet with MTV!

Reality is bad. It does not have background music.

What is growing up without music?

Music is everything...

Me, Myself & iPod

When you think the day isn't going right,

Plug-in the JACK and listen to your iPod,

The tunes they play could determine your day.

Listen to the tune and walk under the weak sunlight,

Take your broken heart and make it right!

Clash of Bones and Sinews

The school has been a place where people can freely express themselves. Some express themselves too openly and some prefer being conservative. We can see talent everywhere and most of them are very beautiful. From talented singers to avid sportsmen, we definitely have many talented students here.

There are a handful of people expressing themselves in such a way that people would not enjoy seeing. Either they are seen as pretentious or just faking their personalities. It can be a real turn off when one tries too hard in being someone he or she isn't. Would you let someone hate you for whom you are or love you for who you are not? Either way it may seem like a loss. Pretending requires effort and energy. You will get tired one day and when that day comes, the truth may turn out to be very ugly. It isn't ugly because it's the truth but it is ugly because it came out from a lie added with hatred, distrust and emotional agony. Sometimes we hate ourselves because we keep comparing ourselves to what we could be. We always find ourselves lacking. We always find ourselves useless. The truth is, our strength lies deep within us and the same strength could really make a difference in the lives of others. If we find that strength, we will learn to love ourselves.

Being yourself is the best thing you could do for yourself. The only thing that is constantly changing is your habits. Your actions vary from time to time but your personality remains the same. Your talents are your attributes and they come in many different forms. When you feel like a loser after some setbacks, remember the time when you beat all other millions of sperm.
You owned them!

Take this Broken Heart and Make it Right

I have always believed that you get what you want if you work hard enough. What's lacking? I sat down to reflect in the past and I overlooked certain details that triggered the biggest change. I proved my point in some ways, some ways I thought it could be impressive. I was terribly wrong.

At the end of the battle, I realized I have not even hoist the colours. I was at a wrong location with some worse people. I worked so hard to accomplish the far-flung goals but the thing I want most, I wasn't even getting closer. In the end, I raised the white flag knowing the hazards of my choice. And everything else started to fall apart. The rebel grew into an outlaw and I got myself trapped in time. Restarting anew could be a good choice but time is of the essence.

As strong as I can look, I am hopelessly weak inside. I'm all blistered and shattered inside. I'm a broken man. I'm not even certain to call myself a man. I fear it so much that I began to hate it. Soon, I took a path far from the sight of thing I want most.

I regained my confidence and started to live but I could never run away from the fact that I'm dead because no man can live without a heart.

Was it something I say to make you turn away, to make you walk out and live me cold?
Why do you keep us apart? Why won't you give up your heart?
I don't suppose we meant to be together
But should we be the sea & the sky, where both are as blue but they rest side by side.
You can call me hopeless because I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me not perfect but then again, who's perfect?

And I know in your heart, you can say that you don't love me too....

oh please say you do

Get Along Little Doggies

It has been a pretty long week. Be Yourself Day, National Day Parade & Movies. After everything ends, I would love to hug my pillow and drink my cup of tea made by the drinker himself.

I was being pretty much like myself for the MI NDP celebration. We were like prisoners last Friday. We were locked inside home room for the entire day to listen to the PA system and celebrate NDP carrying out the preventive measures of H1N1.

Immediately after that, I thought I deserve to pamper myself with some movies. Public Enemies was cool and I'm not gonna be a spoiler to tell the synopsis. Next was G.I.JOE which was action-packed and never a dull moment. Thumbs up for both of them and a kiss to Johnny Depp.

That wasn't all. The next day I witness a Parade in Bukit Batok by the NCC featuring other uniform groups. Well done to all the participants. Went out for dinner with my friends and then we hanged on the vert to share our love life. I got to say we are losers in this aspect of life. However, someone's gonna be a winner soon.
If think that's about it, you are wrong. We went out the next day to see Fireworks! Then I met Oranat in Zouk. Honestly that club stank for that day. I reunited with my friends after that and this time we share about our hard times everywhere, especially in our beloved organization.

So now I'm back making a cup of tea for myself.

Resurrected Wings

I was Exiled to be away, to observe, to learn but never to hide. She moved without me, without my mind, without my words. Some parts of her might be paralyzed after I was gone. They became insignificant to her and soon their services are no longer needed. Some pillars chose to take away their hearts which were once thrust deep within her, where mine is and never barge an inch. What were my errors?

I studied long enough about the affairs going on within her & beyond her. The power of words in her is fading. Elders leaving, new blood is disappointing. Are there any devotion left in her? Is she alright? Whispers kept murmuring she's ill and frail. I was there when she was born. I was there with some of them when she got her first breath. We were there when she was first written into history. But I wasn't really there when she became ill. Have I betrayed her?

I was portraying her but that was the past. Tides were not as those that wash her these days. Her new mind, voice and heart faced even greater adversaries lately, especially how faith plunged into the maelstrom. One of the Elder is still there to ensure the adherents keep multiplying. The other Elder, a stronger one, came back lately to provide support. She's slowly healing but her mind is facing unrest. So much that the adherents could do but only a devotee could calm her mind.

I'm a devotee, I'm an Elder, I'm the Pioneer. The only crime is to destroy whatever we have started. I would never let her die.

July 28, 2009,
I shall return to her but this time with an established vision.
I shall return and reclaim the twisted.
I shall see the Matriarch once more.
I will be delighted to see her because The Matriarch was the reason I was eager to establish her mind but of course it was someone else who brought me to her initially, long before the Matriarch came in.

Put aside the Student Rebel. Be someone who I can be. I'll give faith to all adherents and keep none for myself. I will no longer sit in the head table but rather with the Matriarch sharing wise words. My time to lead her is over. Now it is his time and he shall bring West back to its feet. Each adherent has the power to cure her. Will you be the one?

I Am Captain Jack
And I'm proud to serve West Once more.
Carpe Diem!

Vacant Alleys Literally Elucidate Really Illogical Eccentricities

I'll see you soon. Take me with you.

Since 1999.......

Honey Bunnies

Lately, I have 2 new companions. They are really adorable, fluffy and they are my new novelty. They are none other than my Bunnies! I have 2 of them and they are actually siblings but their colours are not the same at all. They are so adorable that they make you won't want to look away.

This is Bucky....

He's actually very small.

This is Lucy.

She's the hyperactive Bunny.
They are my new family members and they can live harmoniously with my cats. Things have been hectic in my life and before you know it, I've already waxed my legs the 3rd time this year. When I had a rough day from anywhere abyssal, Lucy & Bucky can make things right. Their unstoppable sniffing and nibbling will make you want to bite them.

I saw you today. My feelings for you didn't really change despite the distance. You used to be the only right thing going on in my life and you are the only reason why I don my No.4. I used to say to myself that whenever something bad happens, it couldn't be that bad because I got you to talk things out. The unavoidable truth is I miss you.








Even if I have these bunnies, it will be the same without you.

Jack's Alter Ego

I walked around The Arts Museum yesterday despite the cold snap. People would go to a flea market to get cheap clothes or junks and some wouldn't mind walking round and round to just look around and tell their friends Wooo! I've been to a flea market! I looked for something that was quite rare to see around the courtyard. Furthermore, it wouldn't come from a person like me. Some shop owners didn't know what I wanted, others gave me that surprised looked but at least there was this lady who thought I wanted to buy for my girlfriend. Firstly, I'm single and secondly, what's wrong with buying it for my own? Well of course they'll be shocked when some guy asked for this......

Yeah! It is a Corset!!!!!

I want! I want! I WANT!!!!!!

And you might think it is inappropriate for me to be in that lungs compressing apparel. Oh Come On! I wore a tutu and leotards when I was young! I put on make up most of the time when I go out with my mom! I carry purse instead of Wallet! And My legs are nicely WAXED!!!! So I think adding a little bit more femininity wouldn't change much of my genetic configuration. I promise to you readers that I will let the whole school see me wear it one day. I know it'll be hard to breathe in it but I'll make the people looking at me having difficulty in breathing instead:P

So Stay tuned for Jack in Corset Coming soon this 2009!

Sunshine Parade on Thursday!

This is Neo Si Jin or better known by me & Jacklyn as Chin. On 09/07/09 we went to Palawan Beach. All of us got burnt by the giant spotlight but Jacklyn got the worst. She's like vanilla and strawberry now. As for me, I got no issues. I'm already dark :P


Si Jin got targeted many times, in the sea, along the shore and even out of Palawan. It was not only by us but even by some random thing. She went out of the sea in pain with her leg having a scratch mark. The lifeguard said she got stung by a marine creature, JELLYFISH!!!! LOL!!!!


I watch Discovery Channel and it was mentioned that such stings can be cured by urine's content. I would be glad to pee on her. Now don't get me wrong, it's for charity. I won't do specially for her. If anyone of my friends got stung, I'll pee on anyone of them. However, I have stage fright so we used the more civilized way, a solution by the lifeguard. NOT HIS SOLUTION, his bottle of anti-jellyfish stings spray.


Poor little Chin. She brought something extra with her home. I thought she'll be traumatized with jelly for quite sometime but surprisingly she got over it so quickly. She was eating gummy bears on the way back to Vivo City. Tio Bo!

Settler's Cafe

This is Syukri or better known as Syukor.
You must be wondering why was he wearing that headband with Sydney attached to it.

Lately, we went to Settlers Cafe to play some Boardgame.
They offer more than just an everyday boardgame.
Like, have you heard of Ugly Dolls?? Don't have to try answering
Precisely my point.

But I gotta say this....Board Game isn't the Syukri's thing.
Unlike IT where He became Dumbledore in it,
But he was really getting whupped up in those board games!
The good thing is, he learns quite fast and soon became a competitive player in the Late Game.
So I recommend all of you to get yourself seated in Settlers' Cafe and laugh over a Board Game.

Enjoyable place especially when City Hall is getting boring.
I gotta thank those of you who caught me off guard and dumped me into the fountains along SMU. At least I wasn't 100 pounds soaking wet like Mr. Syukri.
We dumped him into a deeper place, the fountain in front of Ngee Ann City.
To amplify that one, he took a bus home with the freezing air-con.

Good Day
Good Games
Good Pranks
Good People!

See What the Rangers have to Say

C-130 rolling down the street
Airborne Rangers took a little trip
Stand up, Hook up, Shuffle to the door
Jump right out by the count of 4

Airborne Rangers, Commandos
Ai Yo Ai Yo Ai Ai Yo

If my wing doesn't open wide
I have another one by my side
If that one doesn't open too
I am in for a jolly good ride

If I land in a Russian Front
Bury me with a Russian Gun
If I land in East Timor
Box me up and send me home

Airborne Rangers, Commandos

Ai Yo Ai Yo Ai Ai Yo

Tell my mom I've done my best
SILVER WINGS UPON MY CHEST
Tell My friends I've done my Best
Now it's time for me to rest

I'm not dead yet! Cpt Jack is immortal, remember? But still, I couldn't believe I survived through the training till the second jump. I hate to rig-up. It is full of discomfort especially near the groin. The moment I was prepared to be in action, I started treasuring every second of my life. The Chopper was making so much noise that I couldn't even hear my thoughts. I gripped my static line, my life, tight like holding my wife's hand to cherish the last moments with her.

When the Jump Master gave the command to stand up, my legs started to tremble. I managed to look out of the window and couldn't help but notice...... HOLY SHIT! I'M HIGH UP IN THE SKY!!!! Everything was so small like the size of matchboxes! I swallowed hard and tried to look away from the beautiful but balls-squeezing scene. I was the 4Th jumper and that wasn't really a good thing because I was close to the ramp of the Chopper. I've seen it all now it's time for me to be in action.

It was my turn standing at the edge of that aircraft after the third guy have jumped, the same one carrying the Singapore flag during NDP, The Chinook. It all happened in split seconds. My heart was racing hoping that the tap from the Jump Master wouldn't come. However, it did anyway even before I could overcome my fear. It was a reflex action to automatically punch out of the aircraft if I was tapped. I closed my eyes and jumped out into the Abyss! WHAT THE BRA!!!!??? I WAS OUT IN THE SKY RUSHING DOWN FROM 1000 ft!!! After a few seconds I felt a sudden drag and to my relief, my canopy opened and I'm ready to venture the sky.

After my hangtime, I landed on the Runway in the Airbase. I just got my self all Fu**ed-up. I was having a mental block and didn't know how to react in the nick of time. The landing already hurt my left arm and thigh. The impact was wow! I recovered in time to carry my parachute out of the runway. If I didn't survive the jump, this blog wouldn't even be updated.
I'm a sky trooper. A Spear-head Trooper. A Shock Trooper

I AM AIRBORNE!

Just a Little Rock & Roll

I'll be back soon.

I'm just having a little Whoo! A Little Aahh! A Little Rock and Roll...

It's Not Easy To Break Me

Howdy Mates! I'm back!

It's been a while now. I've been busy with school. Don't get me wrong about the word school. It used to be "Jack Dragging his feet to school". Well time has changed. Now it's "Jack being part of the school". I guess many people already knew that. I won't, again, talk about how's school.

I got new companions now. I'll show you in the next post if you wait around. I walk the streets like never before. I'm free from any restrictions. I like what I wear, how I feel and most importantly what I have in mind. Swimming has been my life lately. And to end a good day, I would sit on my couch watching Friends with my companions running free. I just love their occasional 'sniffing-my-ears'.

Recently I went to Nicole's Birthday Party with Oranat. I met many people. Kinda shy to talk to them. Well Jack can only feel shy sometimes. Talked to Nicole a little latter about ourselves. It's cool.

I have a new craze for NUM goods. They are just colourful! Well some say it's gay. Well I'm not gay. I'm the New Urban Male and I party like a Rockstar! Nah....not exactly

BUT!

I NOE

HOW TO PARTY!

That's my life

(Photo Taken By Lisa Han Feng Yi)

I can finally run and gun once more. I used to be so unfit back in Republican days and I didn't improve much in Pre-U 1. The unfit Jack and all other things associated, now, they are all history and I put it all behind me. Look at what I've become. I was happy that I could hit 9:45 for 2.4 today. I gotta thank Vicky (the "whoosh thish good giiirl"), Fitri (Agent Flexible) and definitely my classmates for their undying support. I'm glad I didn't die on track today.

I'm perfectly fine. Ignore the ECG. Ignore the heart abnormalities. Well I'm working on this beautiful piece. I got the tunes on. Hey Syukor, if you are reading this, can help me on this one? I always wanted to be able to kick it at live shows and rip the floors in studios and meet some hot'O. All the people like me wanna do is to have some fun. When I say goodbye I wave my hands hard until I snap my wrist.

Well I cannot live with this thing. Some of you can't live without handphone, well some can't live without iPod. I can't live without TV. It's basically the source of life for me. I'm sure my close friends and 09B5 understand that pretty well. Chowz
P.S. I think I’m okay with you already. We call it….. Iunno….Back to the future?

MI ink

My friends reading this blog, you're invited to MI Carnival. My class will be having a booth. It is called MI Ink. It provides beauty services like hairspray and airbrush painting. So come join us at Millennia Institute for the Carnival on 16 of May 2009! See you there!

Rhythm of my Heart

I went for medical check-up last Tuesday. I remembered the time when I had to go through the Hyperbaric Chamber. It wasn't a 100% guaranteed that I would pass the test and furthermore I see many people going before me failed. Luckily, I passed the Hyperbaric Chamber Test. This time it was only Urine Test, X-Ray, Eye Test & ECG. So I thought it was a simple one. After undergoing all the tests, I went to Room 6 to see the MO. He look at my ECG result and was shocked. He asked me whether I read my own ECG result. There was a line stating Abnormal Right Deviation. (if I remember correctly) He said my heart was having irregular beatings. He said only 10% will have this and it is a high chance of them getting not a PES A or B. However, some are perfectly fine with that and got a great PES Status.

What the Frog? I wasn't convinced with the result. I kept asking him questions about what is going to happen when I enlist. I wasn't going to jump from C-130 after all. So I quickly cab down to 2nd Home to witness the selection and tried to give myself hope. There, only is eligible to take the selection tests. Chief of Air was there and he hasn’t taken his medical screening. I went straight to Commandant and asked him what the possibilities are. The Legendary Isammudin was there. He wasn't that fearsome as they used to say.

There I was, with Alvin, in CMPB again on Wednesday. Went through all the tests again. Nothing much changed in me after a day. So I'm prepared to get the same results. Went in to see the MO again. And he said the same things. And he was looking at my ECG result for a little while. And I was expecting the same result. And there it was, "You're fit for your course." Okay. Okay? What?! I got through!!! Wooohoooo!!!!

Lesson learnt is...........Believe in yourself....

Send Despair back to the Abyss

The hour is late. Hope is already fading. Hope & Faith entwined but never together. Joy can only be triumph with the presence of Hope. When Hope is gone, should there be Faith in the Origins. Faith gave the direction and the sense of purpose but its only purpose is to be blessed with Hope. Now courage is the best defense it bears. Courage for Passion, Courage for Fellowship and Courage for Hope. Faith is in everyone of you in due time.

Lower the Bridge for More than Just Flesh & Blood

I chose the exile. Partly my choice, partly an order. My journey away from the Origins was long. I've encountered many faces, countless situations and that's the only thing I could pray for. The journey made me understand what life is like being conformed and only who share the tears of my joy and anguish could tell what's written in the tales of my adventure. If they cannot decipher them, then no one will.

It drank what's left of my world. I ventured into space and time and built my own world once more. A world, now different from the Origins, away from structure and away insignias. A world where your memories are written with laughter and benevolence. This time I'm the one that fight with no ensign. Ironic as it seems, I enjoyed both worlds with the way I am in each. A Patriot in the Origins but A Rebel in The New World. That's when the Paradox was born.

Too long have I been drown with nothing but concepts and theories. Too long have I shouted the call of duty but the insignia didn't appear as it was hidden deep inside my heart. Too long have I been watching from afar when hatred broke out and I was unable to subdue it. Too long have I let the pieces on the chess board be moved without proper guidance. No longer.......

Behold, I'm already on my way back.

My Bloody Valentines

She is my little pal living in my Diary

She kept me company when I'm lonely

She'll be my love should all others fail

She fears neither death nor pain

She truly lived

But she didn't truly die

As you can see she is losing so much blood

But she is still smiling

Because she knows someone would replace it for her

I've done my part in donating blood

Now do your part

so that none would be like her

Died bleeding

The Nineteenth Candle

Dear Neo Si Jin,

I dedicate this post solely for you.

I know we were very mean to dao you for the whole Thursday.

And worse made you feel guilty for bullying our HT.

Like what Lady Jacklyn said, we know you didn't bully her.

We love so much and the whole class planned something for you.

Well, that's the little plan of ours.

Do you like it?

We don't bash girls, we let them bathe in the sweet cream of Tiramisu.

I know you feel sticky

And you smell Tiramisuish.

But I just want to let you know that

Just like the cake will be incomplete without the cream

Our class will be incomplete without you.

Even if you are the last member of our class (IF!)

Like the Nineteenth candle,

YOU MEAN EVERYTHING!

Wait Around I'll Smile Again

I think you're already pissed off

I think I'm being too silent

I think I'm finally scared now

You think I'm wrong

I think you're right

I think I'm so mean

I think we should talk

I think I won't flee from this in my life

I think I'm ready

But I think too much

Well I didn't mean to annoy you. And certainly not to piss you off. I'm staying away because you said fuck off. Well if you want me gone, I'll be gone. I know I'm not generous with my smile these days. Well, it has been hard for me to get over few important things in my life. I realised you get pissed off easily these days and that's not helping. Maybe I irritated you too much. I don't feel like expressing so much. What a guy who can't even keep a girl from leaving say? I promise if you wait around I'll smile again. That couldn't be so complicated.

When The Rain Is Pouring Down

It has been raining these few days. And sorrow drowned my loved ones. Charis was having her worst week. She has problems with school and it has just escalated last Friday. Chill ok:) We are here for you. Then Joycee left MI too. I'll just take this as a passing of time and try to persuade myself no to feel sad.

Yesterday, we went to Youth Park to support Sister Yaklyn. It was shining so brightly then all of a sudden, it started raining. The worst thing is, it was Yaklyn's turn to sing. However she put it to her advantage because she was singing Keys's "No One" and there is a part saying, "When the rain is pouring down..."

Even in times of sorrow, one can find happiness. Like every downpour, a rainbow will only come right after it. And that my friend, wasn't a single drop of rum :P

Why do all good things come to an end?

This post is for all my Kakis: Rica, Si Jin, Charis, Lisa, Rachel & Joyce. I heard that people seemed to be bitching about you and stuff. Well Charis, I feel your anger. You have to be strong and control your anger if not it'll just devour you inside. Well, we know we are innocent and all we do is just being ourselves. We are no fake, right? Then why bother about those bitching when we can have a bottle of rum. Sometimes they don't understand you that well, that's why they bitch. That's what I call uncertainty. However I believed if we know each other, things will just get better.

As for Joycey The Brave. Erm.... Well this is part of life when one takes a separate path. Like what I told you before, true friends are not inseparable but being separated and nothing changes. RP is a nice haven. There's something call food haven there. I hoped you find a safe haven there. If RP is making you miserable you can always call the HAPPY-HOTLINE: 97105067. I believed the service is excellent. And if you need anything from RP, call the I-NEED-HELP-HOTLINE: 97105067. It's a good network I think. Well Joyce, Bon Voyage.

Jhark in the Pool

I love swimming since I was young. Yeah, that's me doing the Frogman. The smell of chlorine water. The white tiles. The metal ladders. The blue tiles which mark each lane. The white grill along the edges of the pool. The sound of the water going out of the pool. The refracted light in the pool. Those are the things that make a perfect swimming pool.

Love is like swimming. Once you learnt how to do it, you can't never forget. However it takes effort to be a good lover just like how to be a good swimmer. And it's really tiring to understand all the moves and how to perform it but it's wonderful once you have got the hang of it.

Toodles!

I got Jacked

I'm lost right now but I'm still wide awake. I can't seem to do the right thing. What is the right thing? To me it is when the least is being hurt or preferably none. My friend told me to only look in front as the future is untold and it's definitely going to be better than the past. I can't help but to look back. And that's when I hurt myself again. Every door leads to a new path. Every path tells its own story. I've seen many doors and I found one that has an interesting story behind it.

That door was left opened. I can roughly see what's beyond that door. I held the knob, feeling helpless and threw myself to the floor with my hand still holding tight. Two things might happen if I decided to enter the door: I might be a disappointment to the story or people might not like my story. Thinking about these choices agitates me sometimes that I would just slam the door shut. Lately I saw a friend trying to enter the door but it was locked. Am I meant to enter that door? Is my destiny fixed beyond that door?

Yeap, I'm a coward, I run away from problems rather than solving them. I'm fuuuc-ked!

How Actors Changed the Identity of a Character

Now, who is he? Ladies & Gentlemen, this is the Joker. This character was supposed to be very cheerful and he's never serious in times of danger(of course he's the one causing it). However this version of the Joker starred by Heath Ledger was a little too dark and he upstaged Batman big time. I really enjoyed the movie because of his presence, not some crime-fighting hero who couldn't speak properly. And now, I'm having ideas about how to smile forever or at least make others smile forever.........

The thing I like most about him is his goal. He wasn't looking for anything tangible like cash. From time to time, he only wanted to see the world burn. He likes uplanned situation, havoc, panic and Anarchy.

He is a..................85% excellent character

My dream

Ladies & Gentlemen, I present to you Cheryl Fox! Look at her. She's a respectable woman who wears appropriately and she is sweet looking. She is a member of the Singapore Mass Comm World. She appeared in the screen many times and I watched her most of the time. I love her accent. I love the way she looked at people and smile and how she positioned herself in a conversation. She's a professional! My dream is not to be with her (what a fantasy) but to be like her. Inspired by her saying:

If I’m able to make a difference in people’s lives by doing what I love, then there’s no other way I’d like to live.

May my dreams come true.........

Reminiscing Totally Trips Me Out

Everything happened so fast and before you knew it, you lost touch in your passion. I opened up my closet today to take out my Trusty No. 4 when I realised I was having some reluctance. It felt like back in the days when I pulled my MI uniform to iron it. I usually dragged my feet to school last year. Sometimes dragging wasn't enough to take me there and eventually my feet failed me.

I have to book in tonight and I don't feel like going. After what had happened i think I lost my trust in some of them. These activities were what I was looking forward to every year. I love NCC, no doubt. You guys are the ones that made NCC colourful. When you guys are gone, NCC would be another place like Fleet Street.

Now, MI, the place that was once gloomy, is finally brightening up. I met few people that gave me a reason to go to school. I've gained the confidence to become a Jackass! in MI. I chose to retain so that I can be reunited with my partner in Crime, Ricadonna! And God bless me with few more like Charis, Rachel, Joyce, Si Jin and Lisa. Charis is like my twin sister.(It brings havoc when you have more than 1 Jack Jack) She has sugar rush, she's bold, she challenges school authorities, she can dance, she can swim(She likes them both), she's dramatic and most of the time she behaves like a Jackass! I love that, I love my sister, I love me. Si Jin is my classmate and she takes care of me pretty well. What a caretaker, it's always challenge when it come to me. I like disturbing Rachel, she's easily duped but it's cute when she shows her punk'd expressions. However, I'll get whacked by Joyce if I disturb her too much. Well I always feel safe when Joycee is around. Never knew her much last year and now I found out that she's cool and nice. More to come about them next time.

As for my class, I LOVE THEM MORE THAN I LOVE MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS. Our boss is none other than my Sister Jacklyn and I enjoyed the way our class runs. I'm Sarah Palin of my class and I love being Jacklyn's partner. Jacklyn & Jack nifty duo and the Havocs! What a perfect class we have. 09B5!!!!

Well, I didn't choose for that to happen. If it's my fault I would admit it but won't you let me explain. Now I'm banished until the day I can actually return which I wasn't informed of. Well that is just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is. Forgive me for my weakness for I'm only human. However I will return one day to shape up an epic moment.

Cardiological Test

"10 years he waited

10 years he performed the duty bestowed upon him

10 years he sailed the seven sea

10 years before he could set foot on land

and after 10 years

when they could finally be together

she wasn't there

So he cut out his heart

and seal it in the

Dead Man's Chest"

Being Strong in the heart is rather a weakness than a strength. My Father used to say that I was too weak that one day I'll be enslaved. He noticed that "weakness" everytime I my brothers treat me like a mongrel pup. My Father taught me a lesson and since then, I'm never easy to be tamed by my brothers. The more they couldn't tame me, they more physical violence they used. Every of my family member embrace this value, resilience. They wouldn't give up in making me feel weak. On the other hand, I won't give in. Our relationship has been strained since we were toddlers. I hated their guts till I spat out something that seemed to be a vow.

"During your Funeral Ceremony, I will look at your corpse and smile."

Eventually it became,

"I'll be the one sending you into the Coffin."

How I hate those sinister!

I'm insensitive, I'm frank and I don't give a damn in giving delicacies. It isn't my nature. I was nurtured this way. I tried so hard to change. I've offended many and never regretted even once. I didn't choose to be like this. Someone ever said that I have a refined quartz instead of a beating heart. You are right. I never had a heart. Just like Davy Jones. No matter what I still have will power and it is saying that I should grow a heart, grow better, grow into a human.

I'm only human

And I'm never far from sins

Please show me the righteous path

Please forgive me for my errors

Please forgive those who've done sins to me

For they are not entirely responsible for it

Please show me answers

Please save me from the abyss

I swear to you I'm your servant

And your servant fears your wrath

Just like any other servants

I want to be welcomed into Paradise....

Within Walking Distance

“Power is not necessary as it brings dispute."
Again and again people tried to give excuses to remove their threat.
There will always be dispute, therefore power is necessary.
The path they took,
The path they believed could lift them from their miseries.
It brought great suffering to both sides, nonetheless.
It's nothing personal.
It's just good business.
Should the warmongers be left laughing in this world?
Should a child take a bullet in times of skirmishes?
Should husbands leave the house and never return?
Should wives be at service to the Powerful?
Should we open doors to Him?
He'll be a better leader than any other legend.
Hitler would not even be close.
He is the providence.
He is the New World.
I hope I'd not live to see such times.
Then again, who would?
It's not for us to decide.
What we can decide is what to do with the time given.
Should we risk it all in our Mortal Life?
Or should we embrace sufferings so that the Afterlife would be much availing.
Life is cruel.
Why should the afterlife be any different?
Well turn to the Powerful and postpone the judgment.
Live for Eternity
Or
Die for Eternity

The post might seem confusing and contradicting. Whatever you can infer? Whatever you want to believe?
You decide......

A Little more 19 Candles

The Celebration in my school was utterly boring. I wished I was selected to perform but I was so busy to adjust back to student mode. As usual, hang out with Ricardonna and rebel against hall rules. Then Riny called. She wanted to see me to surprise me with something. She gave me a present! WEEEEEE! However I saw the word ISETAN. That gift is soooooo............so cheap! How could I be surprised! Hehe kidding! It's the thought that counts. Thanks Riny! You know I like attention so I walked around with the 'happy birthday' post-it on Riny's gift facing out. So I got almost everyone I know in my path to wish me Happy Birthday.....Yeaheh Savvy!

I went out with Linga & Mitchell for lunch at the expense of my sleep( I didn't sleep for 2 days:\). So immediately after that, I slept long enough to accumulate 46 missed calls. It was Minister of Manpower! He claimed that his family was having some BBQ over at West Coast. I woke up about 8 and got myself ready for the BBQ. I didn't pick up any calls when any of them tried to get me. How'd you like the Missing Jack Sparrow!

I was amazed seeing faces that have no appointment in WJLA. I began to wonder for a moment. Luckily I was quick enough to catch that little message. Hell Yeah! They surprised me. As usual every Birthday Celebration comes with a Birthday Bash. I used to be the planner now I'm the plan. They made me into a walking pasta. I noticed MPO's laughter was the most evil. My fair warning to you. What happened to Nick Carter when he tried to punk Ashton Kutcher? The same that will happen to you my MPO except........ I'll collect seaweed in a jar. And all others, each of your presence is a sin. Therefore I need to absolve them. Muahahahahah! At least the BBQ was cool. Few little burnt finger food and a bottle of rum. Drink up me hearties Yoho! And Thanks Crow for The Sparrow Kitty!

I was scheduled for lunch with Lil Tracy, Qiqi and Project XR. We had Swensen's in West Mall. And again I was late, late as usual. Gosh! I gotta change my sleeping pattern. And so they came to conclusion that my acneland is caused by my lack of sleep, perhaps. We came to an interesting tutorial by Tracy. She taught us how to be a good kisser. You want to know how? Please fill in the application form and pass it to Tracy. Ouh and I gotta thank you kitty for that Famous Amos! A little name for you sweetheart. Egotional!

When you thought everything is over, then something just popped! My family made another surprise. I'm beginning to hate surprises now. This time my face became the cake. Well food baths are good. They help you minimize the number of sebum and excess oil that may lead to blackheads and pimples. Yeah right! I woke up yesterday with a hill in my Acneland.

How I love 2009. Begin it well, end it with satisfaction...

I would like to take this opportunity to thank
The WJLA
and those who were present that night,
Ma Favourite Lil Tracy,
Ma Apple Head Qihui &
Ma Genius Marionette Xinran
Ma Papa
Ma Mama
Ma Queen Elizabeth
Ma Master, the Don Adam
Ma DJ, Fancee Fazz
Ma cousin, Munir Shah (your gift is the best)
(The WJLAs must be cursing me for not mentioning their names)
Ma MPO Sholihin (watch for Vendetta)
Ma 2wo Apito (don't act innocent)
Ma ReplicOs Cloud & Victor (Double Strike)
Ma Star Wars Healme (Beer Goggles coming)
Ma MAJ Singgam ( Hashim) (Coming Soon!)
Ma Trainees Izuan & Hakim (You have pool days you know)
Ma-ni Bhai Syukor (Since 1994) (Hoho! you are in too)
Ma hairdresser
Ma make-up artist
Ma snake
hahaha macam credits!........

Despair

He lost it all when he realised he felt comfortable without it.

He loves the tormented and judgements.

He loves the twisted, the confused.

He suffered, now he grows to spread suffering.

He forgot the sound of affection.

He forgot the taste of hope.

Oh the Lost and the Confused, show me your sight of despair

And I shall lift you from your sorrows.

The Darkest Hour

No one knew what happened that day. He wasn't tough to endure the pain. He lost some skin, some disgusting blood and most of all his dignity. He lifted the poor soul to his feet. He gave him his anger like a gun. The poor little boy couldn't retaliate, so to his home he just cycled straight.

Tell You know who, forgive me

Tell You know who, I'm sorry

Tell You know who, I'm giving up

I may leave anytime

I cannot wait

He came at night with the sound of wind. Silence took over my heavy gasp. He lifted his right palm and he told me that, my time is short and how could I forget. He look so fearsome with his eerie stern. I couldn't move but to listen to his speech. I wouldn't want to recall on what he said but the little reminders keep ringing in my head.

Literal Emoticons

My emotions are so unstable these days. I've been so hyped up at the same time being so mean to others. These fluctuation is destroying everything I built. I think the worst that is happening right now is I'm hating TV. No one understands me, neither do I. I hope these are the times of sorrow which can be no more then a passing of moment. I'd love to wave at it when it passes by. Ouh Jacky be strong, be consistent, be yourself. I noe the best cure though.

Cpt

Jack

is immortal

Drink up me hearties YoHo!